No Cancer I will not dance with you because I am fighting you with hugs and prayers…

29 02 2012

Yesterday a very nice customer teacher friend came in just to rent something fun and she asked to speack to me to tell me how much she liked me and thought I was special….I had to share with her about the evil cancer in my brain so that she would know if I vanished what might have happened.  The good thing about cancer (if there is any good thing) is that folks will tell you how much you mean to them and they will give you a hug, which I firmly believe squeezes cancer out of you. (so take that cancer!!)  As a christian I go through my days not really knowing if this person or that person is a Christian (by their actions you will know them) but I highly suspected many of my friends and acquaintances were….woo hoo….THEY ARE and they send prayers to our God in heaven for me….and I send prayers grateful for them….so take that cancer….who likes you?  NO ONE….so be gone!





No Cancer, I am playing Hooky today Chapter 4

24 02 2012

On my 5th chemo and radiation, I played hookey and went to work, eating raw foods andadopting a more holistic approach….I feel great but know that I will have to make a decision whether I am going to stand and fight with the Wonder Women and the traditional fight and ugly mask or look for another champion….it is horrible with the treatments are worse than the disease….but are they? The trouble is, I will only know if I am here to realize…..it is what it is……mostly sad.





Cancer let’s battle….setting up the battlefield Chapter 3

22 02 2012

Now the fun begins….what docs to trust because we sincerely do not keep cancer docs on call (known as oncologists) These doctors have to be warriors….I choose to call mine  Wonder Women because that is the kind of strength it will take to help me do battle with the gross looking evil cells that have invaded my gray matter…So now we find a very nice doctor named Dr. Tomberlin and she knows another doctor who has been recommended to me by a friend ….Dr. Heidi Jordan and so the fight begins….Right now cancer treatments are fairly basic with a Star Trek twist….chemo therapy to help the radiation/lazer…..They made a mask of my head with a mesh substance and this is one of the weapons we are using in our first skirmish….next visit they applied the mask and take pictures (cat scan) of my brain trying to pinpoint exactly what evil cells are left then the radiation computer machine is set to attack just the evil cells, leaving the good healthy cells to exist as my brain. I am on a drug called TemodarTEMOZOLOMIDE (te moe ZOE loe mide) is a chemotherapy drug. It is used to treat some kinds of brain cancer.(generic description from the internet) My doc said it is the sheild to the sword of radiation so cross your fingers….War is Hell…..Now onto the internet to see other options…..and there are hundreds…and my wonderful oldest child is a voracious internet cancer warrior in her own right ferreting out many options.





Cancer I will not dance with you even if I know your name…Chapter two

21 02 2012

So December was a month of fun holiday events but there was this odd feeling and rushing in my head so when January 2012 came, I called Dr. Chaudhari’s office and they said he would call back…oops….that did not happen and a week later, I called his answering service to ask the real question “how do I get a very busy doc to see me”….their magic answer worked  ” go to the ER and he will come”….woo hoo it worked and in the meanwhile, a very compassionate hospitalist (kewl name for the doc they assign to you when you walk in) said words the made me cry for the first time in this odd experience “let’s find out what wrong with you…..”  I was totally on board with that and after an MRI it was found that I had a tumor (later called gliosarcoma)  and Dr. Chaudhari came in and removed most of that sucker…..but tumors are evil and they leave evil cancer cells so now the fight begins….redheaded dancer against gliosarcoma…..stay tuned for more episodes….

nacheska and keka

nacheska and her honey who helps her fight





Cancer I will not dance with you….chapter one

21 02 2012

On Saturday August 13th,2011 we had a busy day at my Costume Shoppe….Luaus, Disco parties and just plain end of the summer fun. After I closed I went to a oddly fun play with my husband “Jeckll and Hyde” set in a coffee shoppe wherein the barrista made concoctions that turned his personality from light to dark (no coffee pun intened…hee, hee) It was cute. We returned home and shortly after falling asleep I experienced the WORST pain in my head and had to get up to throw up and be sick, sick, sick….ok, ladies…this was labor pain quality, just to give you a heads up. I woke my honey (my husband) and told him I needed to go to the emergency room and I was not making any weird joke. He was great and asked if he should call 911. I did not want to deal with waiting for an ambulance so he took me to our local Baylor. They did a CAT scan on my head, saw my brain was bleeding but they had no neurologist at 3 a.m. (go figure) but they found that Harris hospital did….so off I was sent, totally out of it, in a careflight ambulance to Harris Hospital downtown Ft. Worth. Into surgery I went under the care of their neurologist on call Dr. Alok M. Chaudhari and boy was that a blessing. This young doc really knows his stuff…he removed a small clot …..I was kept under (sleeping with drug help) until Thursday but once I woke up ….kaboom….I was shocked to know what day it was…..get me out of here…..they have the greatest sgns in the rooms at Harris….they say “my goal today is: Of course my goal was to get out and start my life again….belly dance, hula, teaching and creating…..so I had all external stuff removed…ports catheters and starting walking….not so bad…..then boom Thursday to a regular room and Friday I was released on good behavior and health…..I felt pretty darn good after that except for the removal of half my hair (necessary to do brain surgery) and the loss of my eyelash extensions (hey I am a girl….I still want to be pretty) The rest of my hair covered the bald half of my head (whew) and so I proceeded to go on with my life.I taught belly dance the morning after my hospital release and felt sane, normal and ecstatic.  On the medical front,  I saw Dr. Chaudhari again a week later for a follow up MRI which showed I was ok and the clot did not show cancer…..and so my life continued …..until I started hearing the oddest sounds in my head in December….and so I moved to Chapter two of Cancer wanting to dance with me…..and my refusal and finally battle.

dancing nacheska

no partner named cancer








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